Hanging on

A couple of days before Isyss birthday her hair started to fall out. After the party and with her scalp being so sensitive me and Dennis decided it was best to cut it rather then having her walk around with patches of hair. Since she's gotten her hair cut she loves it! I was shocked and didnt think she was Goin to do well with the hair cut. She actually said she wanted her hair cut like her daddy. With her getting the chemo its starting to make some changes.to her body. Her feet start to tingle and hurt wen she walks and the palms of her hands and bottoms of her feet are starting to get darker. I dont like the way it looks but I guess it comes with the process that shes Goin thru.

Strength

So this week was a little challenging for me. Isyss started her 2nd cycle of chemo today and she's doin rather well with it if I do say so myself but as of this week her hair started to fall out. I knew it was gonna happen and I thought I was ready. I told myself over and over again that I was ready and I was gonna buy her all these pretty headbands and maybe even a wig so she wouldn't feel.so different but then reality hit me, and it hit me like a mack truck.   I knew it was gonna happen but wen I saw it coming out I was kind of devestated. It really broke my heart when she said ”mommy can u put it back in?” I honestly didnt know wat to do. I've told her that the medicine that she takes is going to make her hair fall out and she seems pretty ok with it, she actually told.she she wanted her hair like her daddy. I laughed a lil cuz she was serious and I thought it was cute.  I dont think I will ever be ok about the situation but if my baby can be strong about it then I dont see y I can't.

Recovery

It's the night before my princess 3rd chemo treatment and I still get nervous. She's been taking the chemo very well but I still get nervous. Before she gets the chemo she takes some anti nausea medicine to help with her with nausea. They even gave me some to take home but surprisingly she hasnt needed it yet, which is a good thing. She hasn't really asked any questions as to why we always Goin to the doctor or why she's always getting needles but im kind of happy she hasn't because I really dont kno how to tell her. Tomorrow is her 3rd chemo treatment and lets hope it all.keeps Goin smooth and jus pray for recover!

Day 3

So chemo started for my baby on tuesday and she handled it rather well. After she got it we went home and hung out and she was get fun lil self. On wednesday she woke up perfectly fine the as the day was Goin she started gettin warmer & warmer. The doctor tells me since she doesn't gave a spleen I have to bring her to the hospital every time she gets a fever cuz she needs  antibiotics. So I bought her in thinking they was jus Goin to give her the antibiotics but boy wad I wrong. We ended up getting admitted and having all these blood tests done on her which I understand because they needed to find out if there was an infection, I jus didn't think we would be here til saturday morning (tomorrow). I how she doesn't get fever every time she gets her chemo. As of right more she's very good and her fever had been broken for 48 hours so homebound we should be tomorrow.